the full one six eight

i've been struggling lately with who i am, or at least how i can be the person(s) i need to be within the one six eight.

every week i get one hundred and sixty eight hours...

... to be the husband
... to be the (soon to be) father
... to be the friend
... to be the employee
... to be the boss, and boss
... to be the Paul
... to be the Timothy
... to be the student
... to be the teacher
... to be the blogger
... to be me, whoever me is...

there are some weeks that i can do everything within the one six eight.
there are some weeks that i might as well not even try.
there are some weeks i prioritize, focus on some areas and ignore others.

but for some reason,
for this season,
God has me running for each one six eight.

each role is different.
sometimes i'm aggressive. other pensive.

and during this weekly one six eight sprint,
some things i succeed at. others, i fail...
at least until the one six eight clock resets,
and we go at it again.

if i didn't love the challenge so much, i'd probably be depressed.
but i don't have time. one six eight is counting down.

God, help me to be the man You want me to be for the full one six eight. while my environments change, my roles change, and my personalities change, help me to stay true to the identity You have laid out before me. thank You for running alongside of me. help me to stay focused on You, the reason i do the one six eight.